hi

there are certain things that i take on faith, that i find funny . funny because in the light of so many things these are truths i should .. logically ...not have such faith in

but i do.

that's vague and that's all you'll get on that.

except that faith in these truths are intrinsically important to some of my feelings about myself. this is both positive and negative, from where i stand.

i admire elizabeth's vivacity combined with intelligence and wit. but they are constructs. (pride and prejudice again)

i dislike self righteousness in most all people. and there are many things i'm not. many things. many things i know nothing about, can not converse well on. but i read people well. and self righteousness glares where the bearer of it can't even cover it. that and an angry nature. and the role of victimhood. that should be cast off by all.

and i'm not making any resolutions. not verbally. but i've noticed myself making some concrete changes that have a purpose to them, and i guess those are my versions of resolutions. these changes are actions and not words. and as long as i keep forward with them, i am making 2k4 a new space for me.

i need to stop reading. because it makes me stay up late. normally i'm good on a not-going-out-night and i go to bed by 11.

but lately? i've been reading more. and i just cant' stand not finishing a book in one reading so suddenly it's 2:30 am and i'm scrambling to read those last 20 pages so i can sleep

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