� | click here for flickr! 2003-10-28 the fear of screaming my first fear in the idea of an attack is of course the attack itself. rape,violation,violence. but my second fear is this deep rooted certainty that i will be unable to scream. unable to make a peep. that something in both fear and some well-learned lesson to never let loose my vocal chords anyway ..will stop me from being able to open my mouth and let out a life saving gutteral or high pitched scream. i'm afraid that in the face of the worst, i will be silent. i fear this inability to scream in more situations than that. violence against another, an accident, things gone horribly wrong. i know i can keen. i've found myself doing that before. but am i able to shout rage or fear? or furthermore. even happiness? [ previous� �|� � next ]
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