journey and deep thoughts. rarr.

so, on the way home today. i was doing some good self-back-patting.

i hate that. i hate when people get so stuck on how they've changed (i hate this because i do it) that they just ruminate on that rather than continue forward.

blah blah blah i've learned so much! my friends mean so much! i've experienced so much! blah blah blah. yea great. good for you(no, really) ...get on with it.

i mean. i rule. go me. yay heather! no. really. i mean it. i'm all about celebrating me. but, enough with the navel gazing.

but..back to thenavel gazing:

i have stopped expecting things from people. this sounds almost depressing, right? but that's not what i mean. i went through so many friendships and relationships with preconceived notions of what i wanted that relationship to be like, and how i wanted to react to things tehy did/said and how i wanted them to react. pre-writing thebook of my life.

and the thingi 've learned. i feel. is that, i rarely get mad anymore. if people make a choice...well, if id ont' like it...i let that go. they are some separate person inside that head that i won't understand and i might not always support their decisions but so what.

and if they dont' always like me or want to be around me, that's fine.

i don't expect people to be what i want them to be anymore.

and thus, i get angry a lot less. it's really nice actually

but you know what hte best thing is? i had all these thoughts while listening to Journey.

that's right baby

rock out with your cock out.

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