� | click here for flickr! 2001-09-07 scars not 30. but in my 30's. normally i am very excited by birthdays. i like having my own day. i like attention. i like presents and eating with friends and having a party. this year, i feel ... still-watersish. maybe with a little green goo on the top. a little stagnant. a little deflated... even grouchy. this will change tonight when i'm surrounded by my friends eating eel and meat and veggies and kimchee and drinking tall sapporos. but these are things i feel about the last year and where i am now: 1. tired inside. 2. wound up 3. farther than i think i am 4. undeserving of certain things 5. completely deserving of others 6. like it's about fucking time i do something about this 7. like more has happened in this past year than i'm remembering 8. flustered 9. shucking 10. fucking 11. wet and dripping outside the shell 12. like i take advantage 13. like i was taken advantage of 14. angry and unable to show it 15. scoffing and unable to show it 16. like i have expected too much 17. like lists rule 18 .like you suck. (just kidding) 19. like i''d like to shut up. literally. 20. like i fell on my face more than once, why should this time mean much. scars are cool. [ previous� �|� � next ]
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