also i had a little moment today where i realized that no matter how happy i am (and i am) there are a few little soft spots on my ever pumping heart. and they're hard to find, but if by some chance a finger that is poking around were to slip into just the righ tspot. it would sink right in to the sore areas . and i think that's probably good. if we healed up perfectly, we'd be a little too thickened with scar tissue.

i have soft spots.