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� | click here for flickr! 2003-10-09 a conversation sabinuscotta: I lost 2 pounds yesterday - 32 ounces pennywiggles: super sabinuscotta: was a little too much - got moody and dreamt weird things pennywiggles: like what sabinuscotta: Dreamed that _____ was sleeping with large numbers of Allhambra water delivery guys - ? pennywiggles: ahahaha sabinuscotta: how are you? pennywiggles: i don't know. i'm weird. teary easy. lost feeling. confused. i don't know. i am not able to figure myself out. sabinuscotta: oh that's great! I'm fine too! pennywiggles: haha sabinuscotta: what are you doing tonight? pennywiggles: karaoke sabinuscotta: oh pennywiggles: i want to see if i enjoy it pennywiggles: i feel like i'm not enjoying the things i normally enjoy sabinuscotta: Maybe I could get you a little sushi before? pennywiggles: maybe pennywiggles: that sounds good sabinuscotta: hmm - talked with _____ yesterday - frustrating pennywiggles: how? sabinuscotta: Told her she was using her mom to disract herself from her own issues sabinuscotta: and that she begs for attention and sypathy instead of doing anything about her life pennywiggles: did my entry make you think of this or is this separate ? ;D sabinuscotta: she said that of course I just don't get her and she has to filter that out sabinuscotta: Well - your mood made me think of it - cause talking with ______ is like a window into depression despair pennywiggles: ah sabinuscotta: anyway pennywiggles: keep going sabinuscotta: I was moody and weird last night casue of low blood sugar - happens to everybody in sdome way sabinuscotta: sodom way pennywiggles: i've been like this for a few weeks but yes. it' happens to everyone pennywiggles: sodom sabinuscotta: You don't always see why it's happening to you pennywiggles: yea. i don't see why it's happening pennywiggles: that's the 'lost' part pennywiggles: i feel like i'm trying to tell myself something sabinuscotta: It will become more clear - you always seem to get there pennywiggles: included is "change" but something more, and i can't get the rest of it yet pennywiggles: thanks :) sabinuscotta: You should see Sopranos - his unconsiouse visits him with a kick in the ass pennywiggles: one of my instincts to it is to kind of brush everything away. you know, when things feel heavy or sad...just to treat everyone and everything near you like it's stuff you're tangled up in. and just shove shove shove til it's all gone. sabinuscotta: I suspect your problem is social/dating/boys/purpose kinda stuff sabinuscotta: somewhere in that narrow range pennywiggles: those all sound likely pennywiggles: did you tell ______ about your dream? ? sabinuscotta: Noooo sabinuscotta: Didn't feel it would be a very good idear pennywiggles: heh sabinuscotta: I did talk to the Allhambra guys though pennywiggles: oh really. what did they say sabinuscotta: joke - in the dream i punched one pennywiggles: really! pennywiggles: you aren't much of a violent feller sabinuscotta: 'cause she was hot-tubbing with him in a church pennywiggles: blaspheme! sabinuscotta: amongst the pews pennywiggles: did you punch him because of the hot tub, the blaspheme or the ..uh... pennywiggles: what happened next pennywiggles: i don't remember my dream anymore pennywiggles: except that i was trying to get a second job in a coffee shop and was proud of my prowess with the perfect latte. and i needed new running shoes. pennywiggles: not very exciting sabinuscotta: no pennywiggles: hey, i've had my # of dreams about killer land eels and walt disneys head and stuff. i'm due for some dream downtime. sabinuscotta: your due for more carzy poop till you figure out why your weird right now pennywiggles: your intelligence vs. your spelling and grammar continues to amaze me. pennywiggles: and yes, i welcome the crazy poop [ previous� �|� � next ]
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