wo, mood shift.

mild anxiety

missing him today for some nameless reason like i miss .... anything.

ihaven't even been interested in the people i like the most.

feelin free floating. bubbled. separate.

i asked him once. he said this place was a persona. didn't sound like me. but he understood that. safer maybe.

i'm less sure of myself htan i was even a year ago.

i've had nightmares eveyr night for two weeks.

jittery. drinking lots of water.

spacey.

and , yo, with the self lovin. (because that's the kind of lovin i get lately) . dude. with the self lovin. i just gotta say. the best wb side effect? HOLY MOLY GOOD GOLLY THAT BIG O ...like...zing pow? like...rockin and rollin? like...nothin else! i read up on it. other women mention the same thing. long drawn out better o's than ever before.

me and my pocket rocket , we're gettin RE ACQUAINTED, BABY.

wait, this entry started out anxious and sad.

and ...look what sex can do for a girl! (even self-sex'n)

rarr. gonna sex myself up.

gosh, self, you're mighty sexy.

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wo. mood shift up there.

like, this settles out...right?

[upon reading up, the most common first two weeks are: anxiety, muscle tension, jittery wired overly caffeinated feeling, insomnia, spacey, increased irritability, brain racing faster than mouth which leads to weird speech. i have all except the speech and insomnia. 2 weeks. ride out the storm, they say]

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